The words I heard from a colleague I’ve known many years this week when they found out about some company moves which could mean redundancy for me. I’m certain my colleague was being emphatic to my situation and maybe a bit shocked but in that one sentence they summed up my roller-coaster of a week. On one scary hand yes I do have a young family and all of the responsibility that entails then the other less scary hand I think yes I do have a young family and all of the responsibility that entails.
Motivation! What more motivation could anyone need but to get the best from this situation than their family.
It’s barely daylight and as Sarah plays on her kids fire tablet, with headphones on thankfully, I try to snooze but as with everyday since Monday when the R bomb of redundancy dropped my head is buzzing with excitement, anxiety, hope, fear, ideas, memories and everything in between.
So here I am scripting a blog post. I have so many ideas for posts and beyond but I’m sure you’ll forgive me if I am a little distracted in the next couple of months.
I did have an inkling of what was coming but nothing prepares you fully until its official and you become aware of every hour and every passing day becomes lost. Having worked full time in quite a demanding role for 14 years my most recent employment history reads as follows… Full time, additional paternity leave, full time, shared parental leave, part time.. The future?………well who knows at this stage.
There are positions within and the company has looked after me as a parent as my career history testifies but there are not enough mathematically for everyone. Then there is the other train of thought that it may be great to try something different and take control of my own destiny. At the minute though it’s all very confusing..
So where do we go from here? That’s pretty uncertain, what I do know for definite though is this. My kids will notice no difference, whilst too young to grasp the situation anyway, they could pick up on any worry or anxiety so it’s about being mindful of my language, tone and expressions and staying consistent.
The irony is that they are key to this situation in providing the motivation, the drive, the energy to push me on to the best place we can be in a few months time and that the work life balance we currently have can be maintained if not improved, why not, aim high!
Should I be applying or researching jobs instead of writing this post, that’s a definite no no. I need to relax..We’re off now to have a day of fun. It is Saturday after all..